MAYBE I AM A SLUT

I find ‘one-night stands’ liberating. There is something about losing your ambitions for a night, letting loose and letting the liquor take you where it may. If I don’t feel the need to stay in contact with my sexual conquests, that’s my prerogative.

“Are you guys still chatting!?” – a question every girl is asked by her bffls after a random hookup

By now you’d think I’d be used to the empathetic yet condescending response from my bitties “it’s ok babe, guys are such jerks” and I am! I honestly have no interest in carrying on meaningless conversation for a few days with a stranger I used for a good time.

Here is some simple math: talking = feelings = messy = thanks, but no thanks

 

Talking leads to feelings. When you get to know someone, you form an opinion of them. Doesn’t matter if you end up liking them or hating them… you now have feelings.

Feelings are messy. Good or bad, feelings about someone get messy. I don’t need the shame spiral that will inevitably come upon finding out Mr. Lastnight is a total loser just as much as I don’t care for the attachment that will come from learning he is hilarious, intelligent, and wealthy.

When I have fun with someone I want to just chalk it up to a win and leave it at that. Right now I’m not looking for anything serious but when the time comes that I am.. well I don’t plan on finding it drunk in a bar.

love always – Emmi

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DONT KNOW WHAT YOU GOT TILL ITS GONE

So… my roommate moved out the other day. It’s weird, I don’t think I appreciated her company enough while she was here. Even when there was no talking, just having her around was reassuring. I am now all alone in the basement sweet of my too-big-too-empty little home. Everything about my place seems less full, the fridge, the bathrooms shelves, the shower shelves, EVERYTHING! I’m uncertain how I feel about it presently. I don’t mean that in a disrespectful way to my roomie whatsoever. I have love love loved living with her but there is something to be said for having your own space.

I wouldn’t say I’m lonely, or maybe I am, who knows! It’s a change and change is always nice. I might as well enjoy it while I can because 2 weeks from now I will be sharing a small¬†apartment¬†with 6-ish other individuals. G’luck with that one…

love always – Emmi